Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Home alone for 2 weeks

Firstly, quiet. Really quiet. No kids at home, parents also not at home, I'm the only one in the house. It is still ok in the day because my brother's maid will come over for a few hours in the morning to clean the house during weekdays, whether I'm in town or not. But, I don't see her much as well. When she's around, I'm usually asleep. Once she leaves, she'll either call or sms me, and I wake up after that...

The house is clean and neat, only my clothes being washed and put up to dry. the toilets are clean and dry as well, with the pails neatly stacked up and they are DRY too...haha..

I tabao dinner, or cook instant noodles for dinner, and I eat and watch TV at the same time..I make my own comments, talk to myself, sing to myself, laugh to myself (loudly). I helped my Dad to bai4 bai4, pour tea for Toa Pek Gong and other deities, light the joss sticks and pray to the deities as well..praying that my parents and other family members be safe and happy wherever they are, whatever they are doing, and of course for my own safety and happiness as well... :)

I go out and meet my friends, come back super late at night, to the quiet house again...but one good thing, I don't have to worry that my parents will be disturbed when I come home, or worrying about me when I'm out late.. hehe... Totally guilt-free!

But before going for flight is depressing...especially if I don't know anyone within the set of crew...it's just so...ultimately lonely...sometimes even feel sad for no reason...dread to go to work, and yet there's no one to encourage me, or talk to me about other things, there's even no one to send me to work, other than the taxi driver...

But, it's alright! It's a different kind of experience...although I am SOOOOO lucky I don't have to wash my own clothes...I realised...it's not difficult to be independent, or to even survive. But, surviving is one thing, existing is another...without love from your family, you are just like a corpse living in this world, work, eat, sleep, wait to die...
Life can be very simple when you're alone, but you cannot live without love...

Oh and I forgot to mention, I went to my brother's house for dinner once, met my nieces and sis-in-law too...

有家人、朋友的陪伴,人生真的更充满了意义,还有生存的价值。

记得珍惜你身边的亲人。 :D

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Random random

Haha...realise the trend, everytime I put "Random" something as title, it means I don't know what to blog about...

In the end it becomes 流水账..just talk about what happened in my life...

Yay I'm on leave now! The only sad thing that it's going to end...but nevermind, it's coming back again in November and December! Woohoo! Slack...wahaha...
But next year, back to full force work liao... :S

It is always good to have holidays...slack, no need to work, just nua big time....but sometimes, cannot nua too much, will feel useless, or feel that time is going away...for nothing...jialat...

BUT, do what?! I don't like to study, so keep going online, sometimes read book...when I'm really bo liao, seriously bo liao, I thought maybe I should dig my past readings/notes out to read, perhaps I will 温故知新,重新了解我以前在读什么书...WAHAHA...that is actually quite scary..last time don't understand, or never study, 毕业了 then study...WAT THE HECK...haha!
Sekali I realised I could have done betta...how?! Aiya, also too bad lor...what can be done??? LOL

I gotta go already, later going for my friend's chalet...meeting my batch mates...yay! Long time no see le... :D