Life is so vulnerable

一个人的生命真的很脆弱。

只不过两个星期的时间，就有两个我所认识的人离开人世。一个是我的外公，而另一个则是我和Choir刚刚在AJC The Reunion Concert中认识的朋友。

Last Monday, we received a call from my auntie, asking us to go down to the old folks home to see my grandfather for the last time. Before we can do anything, we received yet another call, saying that he has left us...

My mum was very sad, and she felt guilty, guilty of not visiting my grandfather the day before when she thought of doing it..she regretted not going into action when she thought of making a trip down to visit him..and now that he's gone, we could no longer see him alive anymore...
My heart ached so much when I watched her cry and there's nothing I can do...accept to hug and console her with whatever I can say..I must say my mother is a very strong woman..very strong...

The rest of the week for me was shuffling between home, school, and the wake. He was not very close to me, but the fact that a loved one has departed still leaves an impact in me...
The moment the body was about to be cremated was a hard time for my cousin and I. We were sobbing like nobody's business while chanting the Buddhist sutra. The feeling was simply beyond description. That kind of heartache..it feels like once a person passes away, nothing matters anymore...Why care so much about achieving or not achieving good grades? Why care so much about your love towards someone is not being reciprocated? Why care so much about having lots of money? Why care so much about being pretty or handsome? All these will be gone once you are gone...

Then today came the bad news of a friend that we(AJ Alumni Choir) have just made at AJ The Reunion concert who has just passed away...due to a sudden heart attack...
It seems that he is a healthy guy, who is still serving his NS..a musically-inclined person, who can play the guitar and drums well..
Although I am not close to him as well..we hardly talk much...it is still so shocking to know that he has left us...
We used to be looking forward to work with the Guitar Club in the near future for other concerts and performances..who will know that he will leave us so quickly?

Haiz, life is so vulnerable..treasure those around you...tell them I love you if it's something you wanna say yet can't find the courage to..hug them, kiss them, treat them better if you haven't been doing these for a long time...
Give your parents, friends, family lots of hugs...and treasure every moment you are with them..even during the times that you all quarrel...
I'm serious..you will never know what is going to happen the next minute..
I'm not being pessimistic..it's the reality..

要爱，就敢敢去爱，不要让自己后悔。

Ah Gong and Cheston..Rest in Peace...