Copenhagen

Hey all! I'm in Copenhagen now..internet is free in this hotel, so shiok ah...I can use internet the whole day...hee..

This is a very special Christmas for me. Although everywhere is closed here, I had my share of fun and nice memories... :)

Only regret: I did not get to see a white Christmas...but the weather is damn cold... -2 degree Celcius! Freezing man...
But cold on the outside, warm in the heart.. :)

I will be going back to Singapore in a few hours' time! It's 7.07am here now, 1020am the plane will take off for Singapore...

Home sweet home! Yay! :D

Anyway, this is dedicated to Naimin: Happy Birtday to you! I know it's 27th, not 28th yet, but here's a greeting from me in advance! Cya tomorrow! :D

Merry Christmas everyone!

Merry Christmas to all! Ok, I know there's another 2 days before Christmas, but I will be working so this is an early greetings to all of you! :P

I am getting more used to being alone..in fact, I like being alone! Especially when I go out overseas, shop alone, eat alone, walk alone, drink coffee alone...
Ok, probably that's a sign of me becoming anti-social..what an irony, my job making me more anti-social...LOL...

Well...being the straightforward me...说话总是口无遮拦...my bad...always say things without thinking twice...and worse is that I say things that hurt others...happily!
So ends up it seems as if I'm proud and talking down to people...especially friends that I love.. :(
Sometimes I even make jokes at the expense of others' pride..and it can be hurtful, no matter how unintentional I want to be..

Sometimes I wish my mouth can only sing, and that's all..
But I guess that's not going to be the way I grow to be a better person..I have to learn how to speak and listen wisely...talk only when necessary..if I can't joke, then I might as well just remain a boring person as I am now..sometimes try too hard will get negative results...WORSE!

To the people whom I have hurt by my words or actions, I apologise! :)
I am really sorry to have said things that will be better off left unsaid...but I know that the damge has been done. I don't know if any of you will read this, but I have no intention of putting you down when I said certain things. I just lack the wisdom of phrasing my words properly before they come out of my mouth. In the end, they hurt.

Anyway, nowadays I can't even catch my colleagues' jokes..especially the guys'..their jokes are simply too chim for me to understand, or we are just of very different frequency...oh well...as long as they are happy and don't tekan me can le..I just wanna work my share and get my money...haha..

矛盾的心情

很久没有用中文写部落格了。

我是个很容易emo的人，一点点小事就会不开心，或是想很多事，而且是往比较负面的方面想。可是我不喜欢这样的自己，觉得人生就只有几十年，做人应该要看得开，能有多开心就有多开心。人生应该是充满欢笑的，不是多愁善感。至少，我不喜欢这样。

偏偏，我就是这样。我不要！我要做一个开开心心，很会开玩笑，事事都能从容应对的人。

可是到最后，我还是会作回我自己。哈哈！

最近这几个月发生很多事情，我步入人生的另一段旅程、刚开始的恋情一下子就结束、父亲生病动手术等等。每一次好不容易平复的心情又再一次地被波动。

很累。


孤独。


不安。


难过。


哭不出来的心痛。


还要强颜欢笑。
一边阻止眼泪流下，一边微笑工作的时候真的很难熬。


没关系，这些不愉快的日子很快会过去。

我期待美好明天的到来。

:)